Blog After Fiji

It’s so weird.  Unlike many of my classmates who’ve been feeling quite upset yesterday about the whole “passing the torch” idea and the new Fijians invading out territory…I feel kind of down today.  I guess I wasn’t so upset yesterday because I’ve already been really upset way before then.  I’ve been upset when we were coming back from the trip.  I’ve been upset when we ha our “last class” before the interview had began.  I’ve been upset when the interviews began and during weeks of the interviews.  I’ve been upset when there’s the meeting on Thursday after school where Mr. Matheny told you guys to e-mail him that evening.  But not yesterday.  However, today was different.   I was also feeling a little down from seeing my classmates being down.  And to be frank, seeing the posts on the website…I am currently having mixed feelings.  On one hand, I feel kinda unhappy and protective because it feels like the site doesn’t only belong to the Mongos anymore.  But on the other hand, I am incredibly excited to see all the Fijians’ posts!  The excitement and reading your inner thoughts and feelings, =) it is something I enjoy doing~~ (kinda of stalkerish, but =P oh wells~)  And what’s even sweeter is how many of you thanked us for our efforts.  Personally, I don’t think I’ve done much.  In fact, I don’t know many of you (but don’t worry, that will change.  Especially since I will be stalking many of you and making sure you guys don’t mess is up for us xP haha kidding!), it’s amazing to read the littles notes you have for us.  =)  We are not really passing the torch, but simply lighting a new one =)  I like that!

But I guess, the passing the torch idea isn’t so bad, because it’s true and it’s a part of life.  It’s a part of growing up, learning to let go.  Yes it sucks, but I guess that’s like one of the “last” lessons GP will be giving us.  Telling us to trust the new gr11s who will be working hard and loving their project in Fiji, as well, sharing the experience.  From IB (esp in Mr. Eastwood’s unit on covalent bonding =D <– haha, don’t mind be reviewing for the May exams), I learned that “sharing is caring.”  And indeed, after experiencing something as amazing as the trip to Mongolia, I am glad to see such promising(I think that’s like the perfect word to describe you Fijians…promising =D), enthusiastic, eager group of students having the opportunity to experience the same thing we did.  And I hope that with that, we will indeed create that Domino Effect Eisenhower had proposed in fear of the invasion of communism (haha, history time =D) and make this world a better place.  Yeah.  Maybe that’s it.  I’ve always wanted to make a difference in the world, make the world a better place…and in addition to building the school and providing education to a developing country, by passing on this opportunity for knowledge, for experiential learning, people from our community will be affected too.  I’m sure many of you had intended to come in this trip to “help other people” and make a difference in the world.  Yes that is very true.  But more importantly, you are also helping yourself…actually, the people there, are helping you and teaching you valuable lessons you might have not realized or overlook when you are living such a previewed life.  I am incredibly happy of you guys and I know you guys won’t let us down.  Right away, seeing all of you blog, seeing all of your excitement, seeing the challenges (challenge to beat us…ha~ in your dreams! KIDDING =P), I feel…I feel like a big sister =P  And please, don’t’ mind us.  We “hate” because we care =) and more importantly, our bitterness is not towards you guys, but the situation, so nothing personal, okay? =) Knowing that such a great group of kids are coming into GP, I don’t feel as upset.  My anticipation and anxiety and eagerness and excitement for the Fijians are helping me cope with my =( and my bitterness =P I can’t wait to see the Fijians get into action!

Fijians, are you ready?  Ready, get set…GO MAKE US PROUD =D

Cheers everyone =) and add oil!

Again, welcome to the family =) Colts to Fiji 2011~