So this is what the end feels like.

There is always that one moment when you can pinpoint the start of the end. After I saw the newly designed, ready to go Fiji page, I couldn’t come back. I couldn’t will myself to look at the site and look goodbye right in the face. Because as much as I belived I was grown up this year, I have realized I still have growing to do. And the program has helped me grow. Not completely to where I need to be, but further ahead then where I was. Because everything is just pushing us forward. Daily. Continually. When I’m 18. When I’m 98. I want life to keep pushing me forward. And that’s what I need to take with me after all of this is said and done. I will continue moving forward. But for now, I just want to remember. Because there are so many moments accountable for making me into a woman. So many realizations that helped to steer me to decisions made today. And so many notions altering my state of being. I cannot meet the needs of others, or fullfill the expectations of my superiors, but I can answer to myself. And continue answering, as long as I have that spark in me to continue pushing forward. This is it. Goodbyes are so much harder. easier. than anything else.