All good/bad things come to an end-May 15, 2010

The worst is finally over but the feeling of content isn’t what I expect it to be.

UBC papers lying around on my desk. History notes on the other side. Chemistry. Math. English. A mixture of my past, present,and future all together. I thought that I would be feeling overwhelming amounts of happiness now that I am done. Yes I am relieved. Yes I am happy. But not as happy as I thought I would be feeling these few days.  The end of the best  arrived on March 26 and while the worst was approaching back then, its all part of the past now. I can’t retain it anymore, what gone is gone.  Even now that the dreadfulness has past, it still feels instinctive to go and grab it back.  As the adrenaline dies down, what you took for granted starts to slip away. I am living in the memories right now. I could see myself in what you are doing. In a way I am thankful for the memories you brought back for me. Memories that will lose its sparkling vigor and fade away one day.

What used to belong to me is no longer mine. Its ours.  Now its  in your hands, and then in your hearts.  Hold on.